http://www.xanga.com/joyce_lim

yea. im stopping on this one.

edit.
yesterday. i crazy ate AGAIN. i think whenever i get with the same people i just eat a lot. really because i SWEAR you guys its impossible for me to eat like that on a normal basis. i would die. its just physically impossible. i would eat myself to death. yea and thats my defense.... -____-

personally, i dont think this guys face is cute. errr best friend cute. haha. but WHEW! his abs are cut from marble.


he was the best part of the whole movie. i slept through blade trinity. and when i woke up they were still fighting about the same thing. so i walked out and played arcade until i ran out of quarters and had to go back up. and they were still fighting about the same thing. so i went back to sleep and was woken up when the credits were rolling. but basically i saw the whole movie. RENT BLADE TRINITY. blockbuster that. =) today we're having a jam session!! im excited. im also jealous of my brother who is probably on his way to new york right now. i bet its freezing this time of year but im still jealous... >.< haha all i really wanted to do was post that picture and i ended up writing. PC OUT!

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home

im sorry to keep updating like a faggot. but i dont know how else to talk to this kid anymore. and im thinking if you know this guy, or if hes ever contacted you. well, this is where i stand with this kid.

UNDERCOVER? - not even man. not even. you're so dumb i cant even..aghh. like back off when i ask. okay? you treating me like this isnt really helping anything, and actually its hurting everything. i know that sounds mean, because your intentions are good, but you really have to stop treating me like im still 9. and then expect me to act like im 40. it just doesnt make any sense. and you randomly IMing people on my list? what?  and on chris' old screen name???? wow. i am stunned. i understand that you're right, you have been here for me. and you're right, i know i can depend on you to be there from now on. but i dont need you. not that i dont need you as MY FRIEND, but i dont need you to survive either. you can do without me and i can do without you and thats it. the end. and this is pretty low of me i guess, to put our shit up here and make everyone read it and stuff. but the thing is ive talked to you about this for...gosh how long now? maybe someone else can read and figure out you're being an idiot and talk to you or something. i dont know. haha and you did it first...!!! that sounds gay too. but what am i supposed to SAY? thanks for attempting to ruin everything ive worked for or care about? orrr thank you for trying to find stuff out about me to use against me?? buildin up your case man? or OH i know. thanks for hypin me up to people i dont know! hahah flattering man! but then saying stuff like i want to fight for attention.  psh. you were my best friend. since when do you act like you're stupid? dont you realize that people love you and are here for you and you dont even have to do anything? just be who you used to be and still are you dont have to change a thing. im sorry about everything thats happened with kaykay. and yea shes a slut. (i love you kk...) but dude im even more dissapointed in the fact that you let anyone do that to you. and im not picking a side screw that. i guess though, if you were to make me, i would pick the people that arent trying to make things bad for me. okay okay, heres my theory. i really needed you at one point, and you were there. and thats great. im not ungrateful for it. but its not like that anymore, and you trying to bring me down so i'll "need" you again...its not fair. and you have to stop. octane doesnt hate you either! hes just decided that he'll start to associate with you again once you stop being someone else. i still know you. but im going with matt on this one. once you can chill out, we'll talk okay? if you ever need me though, im still here.

its friday. i hope i dont wake up. gotta go work.. -___-

and hahahah YO OCTANE! 11 IMMATURE KIDS?!?! HAHA! THE COOLEST! I NEED MORE MEOW!!! HOLLA AT THE PIECE!

EDIT 2. STOLEN FROM GRACES XANGA.

possibly the best picture of daniel kim EVER..

I WANT TO GO SNOWBOARDING NOW! I CANT WAIT TILL BREAK!

edit.
shout outs. two.
1. i love you. and i trust you. and now when you say you love me too i trust it. thats a really good feeling. =) and nothing even has to happen im glad about how everything is now. knowing that you're on my side and that you care is really an awesome feeling. i love hanging out with you and talking to you. haha and its okay that we dont know every single detail of whats going on. because who cares anyway.
2. i can depend on you. you're probably the only person thats ever loved me unconditionally. and even though i really have screwed up with you some times, and i dont deserve your frienship, you really are still here for me. i really am very grateful. and even though we fight and yell at each other. and say some things we dont mean, i will always be here for you, to make up for the past. im not going to mess things up for myself anymore.
3. JINHO KIM! GAVE ME MY FIRST XMAS PRESENT YESTERDAY ALREADY! SEAN SPRINGS JERSEY WOOT! I LOVE HIMMMM. BEST BROTHER EVER! YOU ARE THE BEST! haha montgomery mall is a maze. and haagen daaz fakes you out. PSH.

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hahahhaha.

thanks courtneeeeee =) i missa and lovaa you and lola SOO MUNCHHH.  theee cooolessttt. you are!

so today. was a really good day. why? who knows. its gonna get better in a bit too. im excited.

but yea basically i was laughing all day i love days like that.

at school-nicole berry is like the funniest girl i know. if she wasnt in bio with me i would go crazy. HAHA HOLD YOUR BREATH! "omg you're a hyena!" "man i better go get those kids out of the doorway..all in a days work ho hum" hahaha and matt had toothpaste in his hair today. haha ouch?? what?? will is really working on his rap career. everyone has been encouraging him and congratulating him but if he doesnt kiss helene soon, i dont know if we're going to want to be friends anymore. haha we'll be SO MAD! GRR! and haha martinez "ohmigosh! you're in love! i think.. wait a minute do we like this boy? ohhh who is he i bet i see him EVERYWHERE. does he go here? i bet i dont even like him." SHRUG!!! ILL LET YOU KNOW!

and like 2 seconds after i got home octane showed up. of COURSE it was right after i changed and looked ridiculous. =/ gahhh who answers the door in boxers.... but he is my favorite friend. not my best, just my favorite.  <-- thats me when i got home! the people that can ALWAYS make you smile no matter what are the favoritest.  he just left now and that made me  about his visit being so short but its alll chill. im glad you came OG OCTANE. you make me veryyy happy.  good hugs! haha we can live in oregon later if you want.. i guess... .......... faggot...sike i mean OG... "black history month is coming up. dont you feel sorry for the slaves that had to run away?" PFT. hahaha whaaaat...oh well! i love him!!

big bro is coming to pick me up later. like in an hour maybe? (as far as i know..) and we might meet steph! and thats exciting.  but i should finish homework before i go out today. at least there isnt practice so i wont be tired or stressed. (haha NOT SAYING THAT JAM SESSIONS MAKE ME TIRED OR STRESSED..=)

$355.80 STILL left on my guitar. so its still at the store. but i show it off all the time and i basically get to play it everyday. so its not so bad. i think i picked a bad time to buy a guitar though. gah..xmas? prelude?  also i changed the strings on one of the acoustics. im happy about that because they havent been changed in like 6 months. i think ill go play a little before i do hw.

BOX UP THE HAPPY AND SAVE IT FOR LATER.

 will we be friends forever?
 even longer.

i had this entry typed up.
and then i erased it because i realized it didn't matter anymore. or ever.

i hope you're happy and completely lonely.

EDIT BY CoUrTnEEeee!!

baby grl baby grllllll. it has been very long since we've chatted. but fear not. courtnee is back again. and gayd out to da max. again. u were still signed on to my computer when u left on saturday. (i was very peeved at u miss. u guys only dropped by for 30 minutes  ROAR!) so i decided to leave u a lil loveeeeeee. =O) listen you know mama will always be hea for my ducky wheneva she needss herrrrrrr. dun worry so much about everythang shaat! we all big boyzz! sikeEerrrzz u kno we need ya to take care of us! but i kept meanin to tell ya. the stress and tension ya hold for otha kidz aint gon do NADA for ya in da end.n i sincerely h0p3 u got someone takin care of Y-O-U. if not sum caps  gon be flyin all round da damn place. haha. lola say HELLO JOYCE  ! n we both LOV YA. hahaha mai lil bro be MAD CRUSHIN on u i know it! its cute. haha give him attention it'll make his damn day. anydamnway.. make SURE someones takin care of u too. and you have to trust SOMEBODY know what im sayin? not everyone is blip or justin. i know mama aint blip or justin. let go of things some times. aiiiight girl i gotta get to school i lovaaa ya. plEaZe drop by more often. lola lova ya toOoOo. but yeeea u kno im hea for you WHENEVA! payce

THROW UP YOUR ROCK FIST
if you're feelin it when I drop this.
Show 'em how we blow the spot,
Let's make it hot,
Let's shock 'em with the bodyrock 'til the party stops.
It's time to take
it up a notch, and keep it locked,
FOR ALL THE HEAD BANGERS IN THE PARKING LOT
Here we come,
if you're ready or not.
No time to talk.
Cause we on the clock bringin that Uhh, Uhh, to your block.
Let me show ya where we're comin from, it don't stop, from L.A. to New
York.
Show me what you got now!

All I know, is what it did take to make this,
All I am, is what it will take to break this.
All I know, is what it did take to make this.
All I am is what it will take to break this.
Light it up now, Light it up now.

Try runnin me down,
keep runnin around,
I'm fakin you out,
would you just, make it what you want it to be,
about to find out, what you're all about,
I'm callin you out, won't ya just set me free.
Try runnin me down, keep runnin around,
I'm fakin you out, would you just,
make it what you want it to be,
about to find out, what you're all about,
I'm callin you out, won't ya just set me free.

OH yea.. andd ive decided! prelude pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee

EDIT.

this weekend kicked so much butt.
it was flat out amazing. hahah its funny i actually feel like ive played enough and im ready to go to school. weird? i slept about 20 minutes this entire weekend and i still feel so rested.

i loveeeee
-text messaging with griddles.
-STEPHANIE LIPTAK.
-rockville pike runs. 
-ice skating.
-jammin with chris and bass players with a GOOD ear.
-being immature with q and chris.
-my big brother.
-talking about stupid random crap until 7 in the morning.
-fireworks.
-bridges at night.
-being able to forget about school work and hakgwon for once..
-seeing the old crew, and learning that they're still cool, they still love you to death, and their cars are still GETTING HOTTER... -__- not that i care... -____-
-driving stick shift.
-the people that let me drive stick shift and teach me stuff without saying im stupid..and not laughing as hard as they could when i stall or freak out.
-chocolate covered pretzels.
-skateboarding in the mall.
-getting kicked out of places for being retarded. and being able to laugh about it.
-drinking coffee outside when its freezing.
-yelling at rude spics and then cracking up
-JSC
-hangin with DA BOYS. and them being okay with it. =)
-doing cartwheel across the street.
-finding stars
-"I'LL REMEMBER YOU! WHATS HAPPENING NEIGHBOR?!"
-blasting O-GANGSTER rap at 4 in the morning and screaming at elephants.


i am looking forward to
-honda prelude. if everything works out the way it should.
-snowboarding..and a new board...........
-winter break
-seeing griddles again.
-shopping with steph.
-friday. hopefully hector takes us to the melting pot. hahaha..im fat... =( ohmigoshhhh 110?!
-jam sessions again.
-the end of school
-HONDA PRELUDE PLZZZZZZZZZ GAH PLEASE!
-more rockville pike runs.
-my beautiful cort CL1500..

oh btw. can people quit saying that the prelude is "too much of a car for little me".... ya that pisses me off. and today i got "...joyce but.. you're a girl!" i was !!!! bah SCREW YOU!  

it makes me want the car more. if anyone has like...5000 just lying around somewhere. =/